Hello, this is my first time ever blogging, so if I am doing it wrong I apologize.

My name is Faith Lindsey, I am the founder and owner of Misty Creek. I started out as a Thoroughbred Rescue, and as I got these fabulous horses in, I just knew there was something more for them than trying to make a money hungry person happy, only in the end to be just thrown away like the garbage. I am happy to say that I did figure out what these guys are ready for. See these horses, they want so much to please, so much to belong, and so much to love back. Outside the horses, my passion is also in children, I love to help children. Now with these two loves together, I have been reforming Misty Creek into an Equine Therapy center. Yes, you say, there are those around, and yes they have been proven multi-times to be successful in bringing better mobility to children. Well YES you are right, but my center is different. Different in the way that in all these programs out there. I am yet to see one that has offered these services to ANY child, at ABSOLUTELY NO COST, not one red cent. No money, no insurance, nothing but the will for a child to want to ride a horse, and hopefully make ooooodles of progress to their present state. Also what bigger thrill than to know that they are riding a horse that once performed spectacular duties for someone, maybe even a champion horse. You see each one of these horses has it's own story, a story of hurt, and a story of success, well so does each child. Together, I see them making a new story.

Now my center consists of 3.3 acres. Unfortunately I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. As a matter of fact, I prior to starting this project, drove an eighteen wheel truck over the road, that was until I was hit by another one. Now my days are with my horses. 4 to be exact, and one more coming in within the next few weeks. The last few weeks I have designed and have been breaking ground to put this center up. The new construction will consist of a 100'x120' barn, completely and totally handicapped accessible restrooms, riding arena, and benches, a railed track along the ceiling in the arena, to support children so they can not fall off a horse, stalls for a total of 8 horses, and a tack room. With the barn being made temp comforted for horses and guests, as well making it available for therapy any time of the year. Outside I will be placing a path all the way around the property so that children that are able to start riding on their own, can ride the path, also I will be putting up a Handicapped accessible meeting room, play ground, a Koi pond, and very nicely decorated pathways and areas of property so that all guests can enjoy the visit at Misty Creek.

To complete this project I am going to need to obtain sponsors and/or grants to total a cost of $250,000, I have a contractor that can complete all the necessary needs make this project a go. I will not continue to ask for funds on this project once it is completed, but we would accept all donations if someone chooses to keep contributing. Any and all Sponsors will be recognized on a special plaque wall that will be viewed in the barn annually, Uniquely, amounts of money contributed will fall into a level category, and each of these levels will be recognized in the name of a Famous Thoroughbred horse.

So now I am asking for help with sponsorship. I know times are tight, many have lost homes, jobs, and family. This is a bigger reason why I refuse to charge these families any money at all. Together we can make it possible for these kids to get the help that they need, and at any time, my facility can be visited by contributors to the project. My sponsors are the reason why this will work, and there will never be a time when they are not welcome to take a look at what they have helped become a step outside and dream, and into reality. I am also getting registered with the state of Missouri, working on becoming a member of the Better Business Bureau, and getting hooked up with a 501c3 so that all contributions can be recognized as a tax deduction. I really appreciate the time you took to view my blog. Please feel free at any time to respond to me, Thanks again Faith Lindsey

i have come to the realization that I need to attend counseling. i have had a rough childhood and am faced with many issues in my life. i want to be a great mom, good student and valued employee and think that counseling can help me in organizing all aspectes of my life. i think that gaining knowledge about who you are and why you behave in certain ways is an important step in recovery. i currently see a christian counselor that i like, but it's so expensive. with my new medical affliction I am expecting to have some extreme medical bills. there will be no more money for counseling, but i think i will need it now more than ever. if anyone is aware of free or low cost therapy or family counseling services or resources please post information here. Thanks. 

So, I figure the best way to fix myself after much trauma and various abuses is to retrain the brain...retraining the brain is a very difficult and exausting thing to attempt to do but, unless one genuinely attempts to do so...they may never find a happier medium within themselves...

 Hi, I have been attending various support and healing groups to help me retrain my brain so that I can learn to be ok with being by myself(unfortunately I believed I had to have a man in my life to be worth anything in this life) and stay out of domestic violence relationships...See, I grew up in a home where my father...a pastor(yeah that didnt stop him at all) abused my mom and us kids...back then things were more hush hush and what happened behind closed doors stayed behind closed doors(besides that when I was a teenager and my mom finally tried to tell a trusted friend they turned on her and didnt believe her)...slowly we are opening those closed doors in todays society but, much of the time it is still the same...besides that abusers are always 10 steps ahead of you no matter how ignorant they may seem...they can smooth talk their way out of anything...even murder...yes, murder...my father MURDERED my baby sister while she was still in the womb...my mom was too scared and traumatized to do anything went into denial and eventually completely blocked it out and to this day just says she was stillborn even while ALL of her children around at the time know it was MURDER...Sadly trauma can do many things...K So, getting back on track I just wanted other people out there who are starting over after domestic violence relationships, and various abuse and others even years after traumas like that that have suffered because of it...that there is a way to heal and find a happier medium...and remind you that the damage didnt happen over night so it isnt healed overnight...It does get better over time as you work on dealing with the issues...which you may not even realize that you have until you get help specifically designed for abuse survivors...this applies to all survivors of all types and forms of abuse as well...It really used to irritate me when people wold say "Deal with it" never telling or explaining to me how...I have found that it means talking about the past emptying out the hurt in the wound and cleaning it out as often as necesary to get it healed by talking about it in an enviornment where others will listen, support and mostly understand you bc they too have faced similar situations in their lives and can be compassionate and caring when alot of the world places the blame on you, the victim...saying things like " Well, Its her fault ...she stayed", "It was her choice", "She must like it" ...It wasnt her fault that HE CHOSE to hurt her and make her terrified to leave....She didnt choose to be abused...She doesnt/didnt like it!.....BOTTOM LINE We can learn to retrain our brain and in time heal...I have been working on my healing (intensely) for about 2 1/2 years and I have learned a great deal, healed a great deal and am happy being without my abusers...my children are happier and life is not easy but, atleast its better and we dont have to live in constant fear of our lives anymore....You CAN heal (to the best of your ability) it just takes time and determination.

I am looking for money for Grad School.  I have good marks and a great resume for the program i am interested in.  I have those in the field arround me telling me that i can be an asset to the field.  However i dont have the funds to go to grad school.  Where can i go to Find $$ for school (grants, schlorships, loans)